I really don’t know now.
The more people I talk to, the more confused I get.
Am I doing something wrong? I know I cannot remain status quo but I don’t know what else to do besides this.
I thought that I could do it, but I can’t. I really can’t.
For what advantaged is a man, if he gain the whole world but lose his soul?
Everything around me feels like it’s imploding on itself and I am totally clueless how did things end up this way.
I am at an absolute loss and I see no outright correct way for me to undertake, but I cannot risk more than that is of myself.
Though all before me is shadow, yet shall the Maker be my guide.
But where are you? Why do I not hear or feel you? At this absolute deject worst, yet what can I do beside to cry out and to seek you?