I cannot think of any HIMYM quotes or verses or song lyrics or simply any words that can accurately describe what I am feeling now.
I am lost. Again. For the umpteenth time these few weeks.
Do I know why this is happening to me? Yeah, sure, kinda.
Can I do anything about it? Technically, yes. Effectively? No, I would hate myself, even if it does mean that it is causing me blistering pain and agony in the moment.
Yet, I cannot tell myself or anyone why I am holding on. I feel pain and sadness in every breath that I take as long as the matter is not resolved and the issue is at hand. Maybe I am giving myself false hope, not being willing or strong enough to just.. shatter it.
I have no idea who I should consult about this and it burns within me and gnaws at me.
I am lost beyond reason.
So please. If you have any idea what I can do about my current predicament, I beg of you, help me.