Well, that didn’t take too long to bring it collapsing down.
I.. need time for myself. So much so that its starting to make me feel like I’m not myself.
Yet, I still crave for your attention. Even if its just one look, one glance, one text. But how does that happen when you don’t even know what I have for you.
It’s ridiculously tough, ridiculously insane and ridiculously impossible.
The mere thought of it pushes me a little closer to the edge.
I hate this feeling. I hate this feeling so much, I could do any single thing just to dispel this feeling.
This negativity just seeps into me like nothing else, rotting my thoughts away, corroding the feelings, melting the emotions.
Caustic it is, I have no idea what the cause exactly is.
Just some random affliction. Bound.
When the snow begins to fly, above the smoky smoky sky, you came along like a snowflake, and brightened up my day.
There is just one thing I need, on this snowy winter day, call me a fool to love you but I want nothing but you.
I didn’t mean to find out who the person was. Either I’m lucky or I’m just too observant. And, I really did not expect this, to be honest. It came with no hint, no clue, no signs. It caught me off guard. It doesn’t even make sense when I think of it now.
Then again, life doesn’t really make sense sometimes.
Still, I appreciate all that we have right now, no matter how long it’ll last.
This is surely not what you thought it would be.
Still, if given a choice, I’d rather have something slightly lesser complicated. At least it won’t give our relationship such a twist. It’s not even funny.
I’m starting to see more and more of you with each passing day. Not knowing if and when I should act upon this notion of mine, I can only simply wait for the moment.
Seems pretty farfetched. Hmph.
Because I filled with emotions.
Think of it as a dive.
You’re going deeper and deeper. Lower, and lower. You know more, see more, feel more.
I have no idea what I’m doing, or what to do next. But I’m letting you in more and more. The door opens more gradually with each passing day. Maybe a day will come whereby you decided to cross the threshold.
Or maybe you would wound up closing it shut entirely. I don’t know.
I feel like I’m taking more and more risks with each passing day. A gamble, a flimflam, a bamboozle.
Not that I like what I’m doing with all of this. But without it, I don’t have much to go on with.
Trust is like a bridge. Two ways, dependent.
Please don’t close the door.
In the depths, the pressure presses in on your skull. A little wrong move and you’ll find yourself crushed.
No one appreciates that.
Peanut butter goes well with jam.
Trust works like a bridge. Two way, dependent on both sides.
I find it refreshing that life works in a way no one can comprehend. We can say one thing, and something happens along to way to make us feel another.
I feel frustrated right now, irregardless of what I said earlier in the day. I feel cooped up.
Either it’s the listlessness, or the helplessness that is doing all those to me. It’s driving me crazy.
When you’ve been kept away for a long time, the first sign of sunlight hits you. It leaves you breathless, helpless. It leaves you craving for more.
I’m just kinda lost. And it’s terrible. No one likes getting lost.
A glimmer. That’s barely healthy. It keeps you going after it blindly without a thought to anything else in the world.
For all that it’s worth, I’m probably barking up the wrong tree. Hmph.
Hey hey hello!
Haven’t been around here for sometime I guess! I daresay I feel a lot better nowadays. I think I’m still running on camp mode from week 0 orientation!
I am really glad for us. I don’t know what’s the situation like exactly, but I am hopeful because I noticed that there’s not so much awkwardness between us anymore. Hopefully, sooner or later, things will go back to the way that they used to be before that time. I’m looking forward to it!
To be honest, I’m happy nowadays. Not happy for a while, but just happy everyday for no reason. Maybe it’s because of this one person who’s giving me little bits of happiness everyday. Maybe it’s the big group of crazy friends that just make my day everyday. Still.
There’s business to be taken care of.
A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality. – John Lennon.
Aren’t we all dreamers in our own right? We all dream our own dreams. Yet how many become real?
I wonder how have you been. I’ve been meaning to talk to you for very long. Two years late, as of fact. Its been forever.
Ironic, isn’t it? We consider our command of English to be of importance, and we take pride in honing it. Yet when it comes to expressing what we think, we always fall short.
I miss you.
More than words could express.
Nothing I can say does justice.
Because the only justice due, is that of yours.
Yet, yet, yet..
Back to reality.